Oooh

I remembered what i did for lent last year!
I gave up straightening.. Thats right.. the messy look i used to sport most days was actually my hair once straightened! Now i just cant be bothered with the whole caboodle.. I look like an utter reject whether i straighten or not.. so i might as well just get 5 minutes more well needed beauty sleep. Besides.. my straighteners literally blew up..they were like 'POOF!'.. and loads of smoke came out.. and i was like 'AHH!' =P

Oh.. that wasnt meant to be as homophobic as it sounded =P.. I regularly admit to wanting edward... and have regularly entered his closet.. and he's one of the campest people i know.. i mean, choir, come on!

Yip. Today. Yoga. Always rather amusing.. I fell over several times as usual.. i honestly dont know how people balance in those lunge positions.. my centre of gravity must be really high or something =P Alice's snoring kept me awake though XD

Aha tea nowww
Pasta.. YAY!

xx

Monday the 3rd of November

Electrons have mass!? I didn't even know they were christian!

According to Josh this is a classic joke.. i think its silly. I didn't get it at first.. =P



But yes. Onto the bigger and better topic that is Life, or more importantly my lack of it.
I jokes. Its not that bad.. really. Really really!

Yes. I had something important to write about today. Unfortunately i appear to have forgotten it.
Oh yes.. Lent.
I love lent. Its amazing discipline to try to quit doing something that you know is bad for you, or enjoy far too much than is normal (think HSM megg!), and for someone with absolutely appalling self discipline such as myself (think not being able to persuade myself to revise for GCSE's), then i think its a mighty fine idea. Attempted chocolate and crisps a couple of years ago. Was quite successful apart from a few completely accidental brushes with chocolate (they honestly were!.. that cake walked right into my mouth =P) But yes.. i don't know why i was thinking about Lent, but i was, and me and Hannah have come up with several ideas for my potential giving up. Rather rudely when i suggested not brushing my hair they said 'whats new there then?'.. but at least my mother doesn't cut my hair! (oooh burn XD) I always fancied dreadlocks.. definite gap year activity =P Other potential ideas include giving up vegetarianism (even when Han said she'd become veggie for lent.. i just.. couldn't!).. giving up TV (i barely watch any), giving up whinging (honestly.. when could that ever work?! I'd have nothing to say at all!), giving up my phone (but then I'd probably get kidnapped/ lost) and giving up my computer (but then i'd probably lose whats left of my sanity).

I think i may opt for Internet. At least for anything apart from school use (how difficult would it be to not click on my emails when i logged on?!) Would be a real challenge.. always character building.. and I'd have so much free time I'd never ever ever get stressed (or I'd resort to jigsaw puzzles for amusement...worrying thought =P.) Plus i always fancied the Fermoy Unit =P

How bad do you think Internet withdrawal symptoms can get? I imagine endless finger fidgeting.. eye twitching from side to side.. and cravings for that annoying 'Dum Dum' you get when someone sends you a message on msn. Ok.. so i may never crave that noise..but i think it could be pretty interesting =)

Uhuh.. but don't worry.. lent isn't for ages yet.. so you'll have the pleasure of my company for the foreseeable future.. Aren't you the lucky ones?!



xxx

Evening all

Dum da da dum da da da dum da da dum da da da. DA DAA

And with that sweet chorus of the bond theme tune the muttfaced one has returned =P

But seriously, dont hum that at me. Because i'm likely to get very annoyed. And although me being annoyed may seem hilariously amusing at the time (large numbers of people seem to think this is the case) it will only lend a helping hand in my enevitable journey down the slope towards insanity.

Uhuh =) But despite my lack of enthusiasm for the Bond theme tune i thought it was a rather good film. Plenty of head spinningly fast action, lots of lovely shiney cars getting destroyed and a large amount of popcorn made it a most enjoyable spectacle =P

Yip.
And now i am doing blinking geoggers again. I shall complain to Nunners tommorow about the shear scale of homework he sets us. Tis most prepostorous =P

Dreams
To make a difference. Simple to say, hard to do. I dont know... i want to do something amazing in my gap year.. then go to Cambridge or London School of Economicss.. should be a rave =)

I had a very odd dream last night =P
Billy will certify my insanity =)

xx

Hey hey

Ok.. i failed to write my blog for a while. Im sorry =) I just thought you deserved a bit of a half term break.. if only for a few days =P
So yes. I shall update you =)
Monday.. hat making.. i think i already wrote about that
Tuesday.. i cant actually remember. Either my mother put something odd in my cereal that morning or it was an insanely boring day. I cant decide which of the possible options i'd prefer more.
Wednesday.. went shopping in Colchester with my sister. Bought way too many things i didnt need. But i do have a rather fetching kilt =P Managed to not get lost and find our way back to grannies in Frinton on the train, absolute miracle.. though we did have to stop and find directions at the police station.. cos we're cool =) But yeh.. we had much fun, and were very impressed with our navagating skills... must have walked about 4 miles trying to find the blinking train station though! Didnt sleep much on Wednesday night though because i had to share a bed with my sister ( we did have separate duvets luckily). I almost screamed in the night when i turned over and her face was literally an inch away from mine.. Twas most traumatising indeed.
Thursday.. was at grannies. Went for 2 lovely walks along the beach. You'd think once you'd done a circular route in one direction it would be the same in the other.. but apparantly not =P It was blinking freezing! My fingers were honestly blue with cold. And thats not normal, even for Norfolk =P
Ho hum =)
Oh Friday!.
In the morning i attempted some of the excessive geography homework i've been set by that cruel cruel mr nunnerly. The special version of 'she's so lovely' for him has officially been cancelled. He's on my list =P
Yep.. and then Mr Brown came round in the afternoon.. and we went to the fireworks =)
Twas rather funny.. they were really pathetic but they lasted for ages.. we all pretended to fall asleep. Because we're mature =)
Uhuh.
And now i am being a naughty girl and not doing my work as i really should be =P

Silly Rosie.
Sorry for being boring.
I shall try harder next time


xxx

For My Lovely Friend Mr Edward. (I forgot his last name)

This is a poem I read today. It is dedicated to Edward as he has nothing better to do since his xbox broke than to read my incredibly tedious blogs. I thought it was interesting =)

 

Schizophrenia

In the flow of my heart a flower

has grown

The flower of Schizophrenia

It is a sweet flower, poisonous -

but beautiful

 

Lush and its aroma fills my life

with bliss and joy

Laughter and happiness

But I am afraid all the time

Lets say from time to time

It has made me weak

 

Its thorns rip my body

And emotionally I feel torn

And broken - blood pours

endlessly

From my wounds

I just don't know what to do

about it.

 

Living with an incurable disease

is difficult

And the terrible thing is, its like

a cancer

You just don't notice it, until it's too late

It is so strong you believe only it

 

As if a sorcerer of such skill and

diligence

has you under his spell

I want you to understand how

difficult this is

 

The mind is in control - it is sick

It attempts to discipline itself

But he who cracks the whip may

be mad as well

 

Suddenly lost in the Bliss of

colour, the fragrance

And the words of poetry that

spring forth from this fragrant

yellow rose

You grasp at straws, and one

holds, this becomes your anchor

Then you wake to find yourself in another world

You are 'Bond'! You are on a

mission and the script takes over

You are lost : deluded

 

And you fight it, but only if you

know it's there,

It is war! How can I be so dumb :

yet I am

 

Naive and full of love, the flower

Caresses and aroused with love I see nothing else

For life is Black, and she this flower

is full of love

It has made a beggar out of a

master and a man

A beggar in bliss

But one who is afraid and lost

And needs help and finds none

 

The world is bereft of help

I call and no one answers

anywhere

No one understands : it hurts and

I do not know

What to do : One false move and

I am dead...

Voices speak and bye bye

Daddy, son

Brother friend

Spiral we love you

And it's as if no one does

 

Help!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

xxx

Just clearing a few things up..

Isnt it patently obvious what my own views on religion are by the completely biased slant i gave to the whole issue of 'why do people refuse to believe things they dont understand?'...

Gee Wizz. Perhaps i should be more obvious in future, but using 'I' and 'You' just creates segregation in peoples minds, immediatly turning the whole affair into the sort of horrendous team game they force you to play in games lessons, when if you so much as smile at the opposition you're branded a traitor to the cause. But yes, i dislike the I and You approach, it assumes too many things. That all of 'you' share the same opinions perhaps as well as the same name. 'We' is far more all inclusive. Whether you agree or disagree 'we' makes you feel connected to the writing, in a way that 'I' and 'you' can never hope to achieve. 'We' doesnt mean that the author necessarily agrees with everything the 'we' is doing, infact calling 'we' bigotted would seem to indicate the exact opposite. I like 'we'.

Yes. Now thats sorted =P I'm sorry... i just.. ahh!

I 'just ahh!' a lot nowadays =)

Today. Has been extremely fun. Went to the dentist, and got a lovely jab at the doctors. Feel like a very cold, depressed and bored muttface. Its quite pleasant really =) And now i shall write thankyou letters..
YAY!


xx

Oh.. and before i forget.

Song quote. I just know how much you all love them.
'ok it's alright with me some people are scared to see what's happening frequently,
but I would never shy from a fight'
- eric hutchinson. I have quite possibly listened to that song about 20 times today. Its rather sad.
But good to pretend ukulele play to (my actual playing is so hideous i cant bear to listen to it =P) (Big thanks to Billy for the rather spectacular ukulele. So cute =) )
Anddd.. its sort of appropriate to the previous post. I was going to shove it in there.. but i thought it might spoil the mood =P According to jimmy 'i never knew there was such a dark side of you :-O it's the most interesting read i've had in a while!'
I think im a bit like shrek, and onions. I have layers of deepness. The trouble is, on the outside i'm vaguely nice, but once you get to the really deep middle sections, i'm likely to either make myself or you cry =P
Nice analogy. Almost as good as one of good old Munnseys. He's a real man he is =P

what a fool
me not you.


layers like an onion not a cake by the way =)
because in the middle of a cake is gooeyness =P
xx